My Feelings on the Admiral

I have been debating these feelings for quite some time.  The relationship moves very quickly and I am disturbed by this, but I do not know how to slow it back down.  He hardly knows anything of my past, as I his (outside of the Rebellion intelligence reports), and I do not know if that is wise. 

I am starting to believe that the Empire is simply made up of very authoritarian people who desire control, but yet they are people still.  What if their hearts could be changed by realizing that without freedom of expression and creativity, the Empire does not support all of its inhabitants.  I believe it is the Sith that guide the Empire into being so cruel and focused on gathering resources and conquering.  If the Sith were defeated, would the hearts of the people within the Empire, change?

Irregardless, these are random thoughts that flow through my head.  Being that we are on opposite sides of the spectrum, I begin to question if we do not have a similar goal.  For instance, why is he helping me if he did not want something different?  Is it truly for me or does he desire the change I seek as well?  I seek to stop the assimilation of other peoples' and cultures, and instill a democracy where all voices are equally heard.  The power restored to the people.  Maybe he feels this way on some level too.  Or maybe he just enjoys the company, I am not too sure.