Jedi into a Sith

Operative Nyx' Journal

I felt all of the feelings well within me.  Frustration, anger, fear, and finally hatred as I watched the young girl be murdered at the hands of the Sith assassin.  He seemed to revel in the fact that I had to bear witness to it, and I had to experience it for myself.  I awoke to find a bruise above my heart, the same place that the young girl was pierced.  I felt her spirit lift from her body and I was angry.  I was angry at the assassin, angry at myself for being so weak, and angry that no one could stop it.  I felt so... powerless. 

Operative Emporer Chihuahua's Journal

Operative Nyx has been sheltered most of her life.  The pain she experienced was that of loss of her father, mother, her first master, and the loss of her first love.  Even with these "losses", she is able to maintain a psychic connection to those spirits and thus the loss is not really a loss since she can still feel them.  She has never witnessed a senseless and violent death.  She tends to see the world through rose-colored glasses and thinks she will be safe on the basis of her outlook on life.  She said a part of her was lost in witnessing the death of that young girl, and yet I wonder if Nyx' observation wasn't accurate of how we all feel in those circumstances.  I worry if her desire for revenge won't overtake her to the point she seeks out and destroys the assassin. 

And yes, I did open a communication channel briefly to Piett to give him perspective.  I did this not for him, but because of my love for her.  I realize I cannot provide everything she needs in her life, but I can try to help her get the help she needs.  He's a bit clueless, so I risked revealing my thoughts for her sake.  It is easier to maintain cover if I appear her faithful puppy versus her partner in the mission.  He seemed sincere in his regard for her welfare, thinking he could protect her, but as I explained, he cannot protect her from the dark side.  I seem to believe he thinks his caring and love will save her from turning, and I don't quite know if that is enough.  My last thought to him was that she needed to be recalled from the mission and go home.  I do not know if he fully understood what that meant, but I hope he takes that into consideration.

I will continue to maintain my vigilance over Operative Nyx.  If I believe she is in extreme danger to herself or others, I will recall the mission myself.  And with that, if she cannot control her strong emotions, we all know that is how the dark side begins to take hold.  For her safety, she will need to be recalled if it gets that far.