Piett Storyline - The Jedi Deese

Operative Nyx' Journal

I transmitted the report to the Rebellion of the new Imperial fighter plane currently being developed.  I am delaying sending all of the pieces to the plan, as I want to delay out my stay on the Executor.  I am aware that my former lover, Jedi Knight Mischel Deese (@Jedi_Deese), is pursuing me still.  He has moved up in the Rebellion and from some notes I've gathered from Operative EmpChihuahua's reports, he even visits me in my dreams.  I left the night Mischel told me he was leaving the Order so we could be together, and I couldn't let him do that.  In my soul, I know that the world needs the Jedi Knights, not two Force users trying to live a normal life.  And quite frankly, with our abilities, I doubt we would make it far without the Sith pursuing us in some manner, either to kill us or change us.  I know he wants to re-create the Order to face the Sith, but I just can't.  I would rather face the Sith myself, not take children away from their families to do the deed for me. 

I spent the day with the Admiral on Naboo, enjoying a nice picnic by the lake where somehow I passed out.  When I awoke, the Admiral seemed very concerned for my well-being.  His face looked incredibly stressed. 

Later that night, I had a dream of the monestary I spent time in, and fast forward to the moment I left Deese.  It was then, that I for some reason saw Firmus in the picture talking to Deese.  Deese reaffirmed he visits me in my dreams to be near me, and that he was leaving the Order the same way that the Admiral said he wanted to leave the Empire for me.  I don't remember the Admiral ever telling me this, but Deese said it came from a memory of mine.  Is this tied to my apparent memory loss?

Regardless, we finished the night watching the sunset and having a quick bite to eat before retiring in his beautiful house.